Well. I mean. I’ve ate and ate and ate this past week. Like I controllabley. Idk how I can do this to myself. My thighs are getting cellulite all over…my stomach is H U G E. Like I don’t even thing huge can describe it. I am almost back to the biggest I have ever been in my entire life… Like I weighed myself before bed tonight and I am 161. The most I have ever weighed is 166… So I mean. I am pushing it. I plan to not eat unless it’s small, light stuff and I am so hungry I feel like I may puke. I am thinking I’ll live off of that 15 calorie lemonade, jello, yogurt, and maybe around dinner time like a salad from Wendy’s? Things like that.. I just gotta do something. I live like I am 100 pounds. But I am actually huge.. Sometimes I think about making myself throw up. I mean. I tried, but I can’t get it to happen. I feel really bad about myself because the other day at cheer practice a cheerleader called me fat.. And then in 1st period Bailey told me if I bought a Beetle Bug for my first car I would break it down. So I mean.. I am clearly bigger than I see myself as being. I gotta change.
I miss the way you talk
and the smell of your cologne
The way you looked at me
and how I didn’t feel so alone
I miss the way you feel
your arms around my waist
and you kissing me
the way that your lips taste
I miss your everything
your voice, your eyes, your hair
You watching out for me,
and always being there
But most of all, I think I miss,
the way things used to be
the every day, the little things
when you still spoke to me
I love this..
Even though I have a boyfriend it makes me sad. I like imagine what it would be like without him in my life.
I wonder if I’ve walked past you on the road
Or if we’ve shared a subway car
I wonder if you’re three blocks away
Or if you’re more than a far
I wonder if I’ve looked at you,
Smiled at you with my eyes,
And if you’re one of those strangers
That gives me fleeting butterflies
I wonder if…
Look at this…..this is exactly why I don’t feel comfortable wearing any of my clothes. I’m so fat, how does my boyfriend stand to look at me?
I stepped out of the shower and put on a kind of cute looking dress….only because nothing else fits. My shorts don’t even fit anymore. My Mamaw walks in and is like “That dress is too damn short, it’s right up your ass!”
No, honey….it’s not. She was in Wet Seal when I bought it. She let me take it to Europe.. Idk. I don’t know what else to wear. My little brothers swim party is today, and I can’t just not go. I refuse to swim. I would feel better in some sweats and a tshirt, but it’s way too hot for that. I guess I’ll wear stretchy Soffe shorts or something? I dunno. 😒
I love waking up to a nice cup of coffee, but who doesn’t love cold coffee on a hot summer day!? Most iced coffees at coffee shops are full of heavy creams and sugar but I made a simple and light version! I used my Keurig but you can use whatever coffee maker! I brewed one cup of coffee,…
Perfect 100 Calorie Sweet Tooth Cure!
Caramel rice cake with 2 melted jumbo marshmallows on top and a side of coffee!
Having a busy schedule makes remembering to eat breakfast crucial. It’s hard to remember to eat breakfast when we have so many things going on, but working on a hungry stomach leads you to feeling irritable, forgetful, lightheaded, and…
- 1 Multi Grain W/Flax Flat Out Bread
- 1/4 Cup Reduced Fat Sargento Colby Jack Cheese
- 3 Large Romaine Leaves
- 1/4 Cup Old El Paso Fat Free Re-fried Beans
- 2 Tbsps Salsa
- 1 Tbsp Cajun or Fajita Seasoning
- 1 Medium Chicken Breast Boneless
- Defrost chicken and…
Fab Fit Friday: A Berry Breakfast-Fruitastic Pancake
The phrase I always practice and preach , breakfast is the most important part of the day. It’s also important to do breakfast right! Make sure your breakfast has fruit or veggies with protein and healthy whole…